Am I always there for my friends?

I met up with my best friends.
The three of us sat and talked for two and a half hours.

For a person who has been emotionally detached from people around her for quite a while, it was great to talk to friends again.

Yeah, I’ve been locked in my own selfish world lately, with just me and my Korean idols in it. Sometimes, when I see people I know, I feel like running. I just don’t feel like saying hi to them.

Perhaps it is because none of the friends I see every day can really see me as I am.
So it was really great to chat with them.

But then, as we talked, I realized that there were things they know of each other, but unknown to me.
I felt left out.

It is foolish. But I have to be honest with myself. It is better to accept the feeling, than to deny it.

I hope, however, that they did not notice my disappointment, because my feelings had nothing to do with them.

I just wonder, if I am a selfish friend, too absorbed in my own world.
Am I always there for my friends?

Ps: If you really think that I would have harsh words to say about your video, think again.

PDP

PDP is Peer Development Program.....
It is one of the assignments for my Psych subject....
Basically it's just doing research on a topic, write a report and present it in about 30-40 minutes...
Of course, it's a group work.
On top of that, we have to choose one group and do critique on their presentation....

Well, since I cannot do a critique on my own group, I'll just do it here.
haha....no no kidding

Actually I've just finished my presentation an hour ago.

I think I should make a mental note on what I've learnt through this experience.
Teamwork

I'm not saying that my group did badly...
We did pretty well actually...
In fact, I wanna thank my groupmates for tolerating my procrastination...
and for their effort in making this assignment work =D

It's just that we had little communication, each doing our own parts, not knowing what others were doing....
and it had to be too much burden for that one member who contacted everybody...
So I think, that we would have done better if we worked as a team.
Well, I blame myself for not being initiative in communicating with my groupmates.

Nevertheless, it's ok. Because we grow as we learn from our mistakes and improve on our weaknesses.

Do I sound lame?
haha

-out-

Dilemma

I feel like a kid, afraid of getting caught lying.

Should I tell the truth, and face the punishment; or should I create a bigger lie, and get a chance to get away with it?

I suppose that facing the problem is the only way to solve it, but me being me, I go around it.

28/30

I'm not sure if I should be blogging about this.
Because I would sound as if I were boasting, or perhaps even showing off.
Well, I'd tell you that is not what I mean, but this is what really happened.

I had my macro quiz this morning [ok yesterday morning coz it's past midnight]
and if you've read my previous post, you'd know that I was drooling over SuJu and not studying.
and so I only spent an hour or two before the quiz to cram everything about AD-AS into my brain....

First, you have to know that we use some computer software to do our quiz...
and our marks will be shown once we click End.

I didn't expect to score high....
so I myself was stunned by my score
28/30

great.....now all my classmates are gonna kill me

Blame it all on Super Junior!!!

E.L.F.s all over the world are going crazy!!!

alright...I don't necessarily call myself an E.L.F., but I am definitely a SuJu fan.

Super Junior has finally made their comeback this week.
First, they released the digital single 'Sorry Sorry' on monday....
[and then I went crazy]
and then they released the album 'Sorry Sorry' on thursday....
[and then I went crazier]
and then they performed on Music Bank and released the mv for 'Sorry Sorry' on Friday night...
[and then I don't care anymore]

omg....I don't even sound coherent!!!
I'll tell u why I went crazy.
The song is definitely addictive!!!!

and I'll tell u why I went crazier.
The album is, surprisingly, rather good, and worth buying!!!!!

and I'll tell u why I don't care anymore.
I kept waiting.....waiting.....waiting.....and waiting for the mv to come out.....
kept googling 'super junior sorry sorry mv'.....but nothing came out....
kept doing that for 2 days I tell u......2 days
n when it's finally out....I wasn't even online.....wth

and I'll tell u how crazy I can be.
I was gonna have a macro quiz the next morning, but I didn't study, instead I went and analyze the mv.....
crazy hor......

aiyo...Super Junior is damn distracting!!!!
I couldn't concentrate in class......and I couldn't focus for the whole week!!!!
yes....Blame it all on them!!!
and no Super Junior...u should not be singing Sorry Sorry....u should be saying Sorry Sorry to us fans!!!!

But I love u none the less!!! =P

I AM SICK

Mr Alex was right.

I AM SICK.

I'm sick and tired of ppl telling me I'm very 'geng', just because of my results.
I'm sick and tired of ppl asking me tons of questions, just because they think I am better than them.
I'm sick and tired of ppl calling me smart, just because I know my own way of studying.
I'm sick and tired of ppl giving me too much credit.
I'm sick and tired of ppl having too high expectations of me.
I'm sick and tired of ppl judging me.

Because they just add to the shame and guilt I feel, for not living up to my own expectations.

I am sick and tired of myself, always criticizing me, but not doing anything to make me a better person.

I am sick and tired of myself, for judging me so harshly.

I was sick?? o.0

Tuesday was the due date for my stats assignment.

Unfortunately, I hadn't even started writing my real assignment till midnight. I had my answers, but I just hadn't pen it down.

So, I spent my whole sleeping time completing my assignment.

And that explains why I dozed off in macro class.

But here's the funny thing......

My lecturer, Mr Alex, was very considerate.
[In fact, I would say that he was very cute XP]

He said I was SICK.
[Goodness....he even made an excuse for me!!!!!]

Now, come to think of it....was he trying to make me feel GUILTY???

Well then, if that was the case, he damn well succeeded!!!

Times when I hate Jonathan

Don't get me wrong, Jon is my best friend, but sometimes I just feel like kicking his...... I mean, hitting him =P

Examples of times when I hate Jon.....

When he does not study, but gets good/at least average results.
[Especially when he only "flipped through" the textbook and yet remembers what he read ><]

When he knows what's right, but does the opposite.
[Classic example: his English essay. His English Grammar is good, but during exams, he can't even bother to write grammatically correct sentences......=.= all silly mistakes!!!]

When he knows what's best, but doubts himself.
[He's so smart he can figure out a lot of things by himself, but at times he just thinks too much....I don't mind that he turns to me for advice, I just wish that he wouldn't doubt himself so much......]

When he's being a smart ass. Damn annoying....
[Alright! Alright! I have no right to say that because I admit to be a smart ass myself....my sister would be the 1st to agree to that......but I'm not talking about me here XP]

When he calls me out just to go jalan-jalan....SAKIT KAKI....
uh huh.....this is where I'm getting at....
Last Saturday, he sent me an sms asking whether I was busy lately...
then said that he wanted to go somewhere public just to walk....
[just to comment on this: u don get a girl to go out with u just to WALK....we SHOP]
anyway, we decided to go to KLCC and Central Market the next day....

tried calling our useless friend Ken to go with us.....
but useless Ken never picked up his phone.....and didn't even bother to reply our sms =.=

so, we lied to our parents.....
Jon told his mom that he was going to KLCC with mt and 'a few others.....'
I told my parents that I was going to KLCC with my old 'friends'.....
yes, I knew you would ask "WHY?"
Because the parents would misunderstand and think that we were dating or something like that.....=.=
well, we don't blame them....because even some of our juniors did think that we were together
=.="

and so, we went to Suria KLCC....and walked the garden....
one big round......
[for goodness sake, he even suggested walking another round....summore almost noon dy...]
then went up to Kinokuniya.....had lunch at KFC [my treat coz i was late..missed 2 trains]
then went to Central Market....
circled the whole place.....[i think Central Market is not as interesting as it used to be dy... ]
and he ended up buying 2 noisy little wooden frogs.....to irritate ppl

By the time we were going home, my FEET were already SORE....
especially my toes =.=

so my dear friend,
the next time you're on your mood swings again....
don't go jalan-jalan lah.....

13eyond your imagination??

oh....haven't blogged for days dy....

shall I just blog about something that makes me happy???

TVXQ was guest on SMAP's show!!!!!!
wheeeee~~~~

haha....it's actually not much to celebrate about...
but they were so funny on that show!
way to go man!

plus they performed 'Purple Line' and 'Doushite...[aiya the title of the song so long that i can't remember]' together with SMAP
erm...it was my 1st time seeing SMAP sing... o.0
and erm...TVXQ was better.... XP
haha...ok...I'm biased
on the whole it was a good performance
but maybe they slowed the tempo so that SMAP could catch up?? hehe...SMAP can sing though
I know that Takuya Kimura is one of them but this is the 1st time I've seen all SMAP members together....
turns out I've seen most of them before in dramas but I just didn't know =P

oh and TVXQ's gonna be on Music Station!!!! Finally!!!!
am so gonna watch it...
not just because they're gonna be on, but because BoA and Arashi would be on too!!!
haha

However, the most anticipated thing now is Super Junior's up and coming 3rd album!!!!!
title song 'Sorry Sorry' is gonna be released on 12th March....
which is next week......[wheeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!]
what a lame title for a song.....
why would you wanna say 'sorry' while you're dancing to a supposed-to-be-cool song and awesome choreography???
BUT...I'll listen to the song 1st before I give any further comments...
yes, I'm afraid that they won't turn out as good as I hope they would...
BUT........Super Junior has never let us fans down =D
[i hope....]

A few official photos are out...
am satisfied with their new 'image'...
only thing I'm not satisfied with is this:


i think it's a nice photo....
BUT...DO U SEE 13 GUYS THERE???
NO???
then take a look at the number 3....
now do u see the hat below it???
YES!!! that is KANGIN!!!
just when we have them all lined up from the oldest to the youngest to take a nice nice photo.......=.=
angle problem......wth

anyway...hope the new album is good ^^

I've been tagged

For the 1st time, I've been tagged!
haha.....am not sure how to do this....but I'd like to try....

Rules: Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real, nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy / girl name question.

1. What is your name: Mei Thin Ng / Ng Mei Thin. Can I cheat and use both N and M? Ok fine. I'll use M.

2. A four letter word: Meat.

3. A boy's name: Michael. I actually have a friend named Micheal [different spelling only].....haha

4. A girl's name: Melissa. =P

5. An occupation: Mechanical engineer....haha....yahor.....Mechanic oso can......

6. A colour: aiyo.....this one took me long enough!!! Maroon!!!!!

7. Something you'll wear: I was thinking some branded stuff....but then can't think of any ><

8. A food: McChicken.....Maggie Goreng.....Murtabak......eh what else ah......

9. Something found in the bathroom: oh so easy.....Mirror......

10. A place: Meteora [is a beautiful place in Greece which inspired Linkin Park's album name]

11. A reason for being late: Mother's car tayar pancit!

12. Something you'd shout: Ma de!!! [omg so rude] ....or if you like something english.....Man!!! ....or something typical.....Mom!!!

13. A movie title: Madagascar

14. Something you drink: Milo

15. A musical group: man....this is where I envy my sis cuz she can answer Linkin Park......wth.....
Maroon 5.....but i used the word Maroon........
My Chemical Romance.....or Matchbox Twenty........or Muse.......hehehehehe
thank god I thought of these people.....otherwise I'd write Metallica ><

16. An animal: Meerkat....there's one in Lion King....hehe.....go watch and you'll know

17. A street name: Merlin Street....yalah searched on the net one.....is some street in London haha.... otherwise write wat?? Jalan Merpati?? I'm sure there's one.... but Jalan Mati not sure loh

18. A type of car: erm....do you mean brand name?? oh hell, i just thought of an answer my sis could use.....Lamborghini [how cool is that?!]
Mazda......haha my answer not that bad either......or Mini Cooper =P [still, Lamborghini is cooler...=.=]

19. The title of a song: Mideoyo!!! Mirotic!!! ok fine.....that's korean, not english.....
MOVE ALONG...by the All American Rejects...[yeah...great answer]..... "Right back what is wrong...we move along..."
yes...this is where I derived the address for my blog =P

I tag my Bro.....let's see how he answers with 'W'........=P

shit...lost my phone

Aiyayaya....
turns out I really dropped my phone lah....

right...my own fault....
cannot blame anybody....
so cannot say anything oso liao.....
T.T

but silently cursing the jerk who picked up my phone

urgh....mourning my K550i

Where's my phone???

Just had my stats quiz....

Before the quiz I realized that I'd left my phone somewhere...
At first I thought I left it in the car, so I borrowed my friend's phone and called my mother to check if it's there...
She said no.
And then I thought about it again...
Hmm....maybe I left it on the dining table.....
Or...did I drop it when I got out of the car???
I don't think so leh....cuz I'd feel it if I'd dropped it....
So it's most probably on the dining table....
Aiyo....how forgetful!!! (x.x)

Haha...yesterday played cards at Mel's house...
won 10 bucks from Keng Fai =p
Raymond and Shu Hua going to Melbourne in 10....no....9 days' time.....
oh well....I'm sure soon there'll be more friends leaving to study abroad....
Just don't go without seeing me first....
Haha

albums, songs....and a drama....

I've thought of blogging about many things...
but I've never got to do it....
so.....why not write it all down at once???
hehe ^^

ok...I'll start with some happy ones....
I bought DBSK's Mirotic album!!!
we went to Rock Corner at The Curve...
wanted to know if the words inside the album were korean...so I asked the sales person to open it...and then she asked her colleague to play it...
haha.....their sound system rocks!!!
damn syok listening to Mirotic in the shop....
by the way...it's version C...
yalah yalah...I dunno why they wanna release so many versions...
I juz choose one and buy...

speaking of albums....my sis ordered DBSK's T Concert DVD online....
plus Super Junior Super Show.....
but Super Show no more stock!!!
isk... sometimes I'd wish they don't have so many fans...
I want that DVD!!!
speaking of which....is Super Show still on in Malaysia???
I wanna go!!
but when?????????

and still speaking of albums....I realized that I got my All The Right Reasons at a really good price!!!
bought it last holiday
it's the special edition....so it's imported...
saw it somewhere where it's sold at rm93.... but I bought it at less than rm65...
wahahahaha

oh....and dunno whether Nickelback's new album Dark House is good or not...
but I like their single Gotta Be Somebody

and....I recently downloaded some songs of 陈奕迅...
have always liked a few of his songs...such as 最佳损友，富士山下，夕阳无限好...
haha....I have these songs....but just downloaded a few more like 浮夸，十面埋伏，Lonely Christmas, Shall We Talk....
I'm sure there are more songs that I'd like...but he has so many....
so.....anybody wanna recommend???

right...I seem to be blogging a lot about music....
aiya....don't care.....just one more......
this time it's Big Bang's.......youngest member Seungri
bear in mind that this guy is 19 years old....
recently released a single called Strong Baby...
I think the song is much too 'sexual'.....
for god's sake...he's exactly my age!!
too much of a Maroon 5 fan perhaps????

and has anyone heard of the Korean version of Meteor Garden 流星花园???
it's called Boys Over Flowers/Boys Before Flowers....
it's currently airing in Korea....
haha....I was curious and watched the first episode....
it seems to be quite intriguing/interesting/promising.....
it's said that the whole drama has 24 episodes...but it's currently aired till episode 10....
aiyo.....means it'll only end in late March....
best not watch anymore....I'll wait till end of semester...

right...that's all for now

nth lah....simply write.....

aiya...long time nvr update blog....

erm...life is like that loh....
as usual....get scolded every day.....
so i feel bad every day.....

getting moody like Jon lah....
haha

omg....i oni juz found out tht he's the head of 6th form council....
WHAT THE........

=.=

Understanding

You asked,
How is it that i understand so much about you

I couldn't come up with a good answer,
and so I said,
It comes naturally

You didn't buy any of it....
and you're still seeking for an answer....

You were right
It's definitely not time...
That is why I didn't say it's because I've known you for years....
So, what is it?

Perhaps it is the time that we have spent together
the things we have experienced together
the thoughts, feelings, knowledge, even gossips that we have shared
The things which made us such close friends

Perhaps it is because we are so close....
that I understand how your mind works
and can easily pick up your various expressions
your different moods
your every thought

Perhaps it is simply because we think alike

I can think of a dozen more reasons
But it doesn't matter
Because they are not the answers that you're looking for....

The question that you really wanted to ask was,
"How do I make him understand me?"

I cannot answer you that, but I will tell you this....
Don't push it
I have once tried to make someone understand me
But in the end, I gave up
Because I learnt that we can never MAKE others understand us
Or rather, some people just won't understand.....

So, don't get too disappointed
Just be content with the friendship and love that you have
Then, you will be happier

Love you always, MT

New Semester....also the last one....

Bro asked me how my new sem is.....
i said i'm starting to 'get a hang of it'....
well, i don't think that's how i should use the expression.......
since i'm in my last sem already....

but yeah....
i'm starting to get into the mood of having to deal with classes, assignments and exams....
be it tedious, challenging, confusing, difficult, interesting.....
bring it on....
that is the right kind of attitude, right?
afterall, i'll have to go through them anyway.....

i'm taking Statistics, Macroeconomics and Psychology for Personal Development....
this time around, it's easy to get familiar with the classes...
since all 3 lecturers have taught me in the previous semesters.....
i know their style and what i like about them, but i also know what i don't like about them....
hmm, i'm not sure if that's a good thing........ o.o

oh, and i shall tell you my results for last semester.....
Critical Thinking Skills-------------Credit
Advanced English-------------------Distinction
Microeconomics---------------------Distinction
Principles of Accounting-----------High Distinction
Moral Studies------------------------C

ah, well....
it is pretty much what i predicted it to be.....
though i was hoping to get HD for Micro.....
it's just a tiny regret that i didn't put more effort into understanding market structures then....
but bear in mind that the finals was not easy at all....=.=

as for CTS, i know that it's quite impossible for me to get a distinction.....
but still, now i have a Credit in my overall results.....
tak cantik lah....everything else is Distinction & High Distinction... T_T

well, no more Credits.....
this time around, i'm going to get at least Distinctions for all 3 subjects....
just wait and see.....

i'm still dreaming...

it's my 2nd day in college
but me still blur blur leh.......

haiz....tht's why sometimes i hate holidays....
i'm still caught in between holidays n school!

feel like banging my head on the wall or sth like tht to wake myself up......
=.=

i've got lots of stuff to blog about....
but i don think i'm in the mood.....
well, be back later
annyeong

SuperStar Libra

i juz went on a Star Cruise with my family...
the ship's name is SuperStar Libra...
n we sailed from Port Klang to Penang to Singapore then back to Port Klang

i was told that the Star Cruises are all sold!!
my dad says it's because they're making losses..not profits...
so no more Star Cruises in the future......
phew~ lucky we caught it on it's last voyage then....

the best thing on the cruise was that we could eat as much as we want!!!
hehe
fyi.....my family's got a very BIG APPETITE...
we got to have 6 meals each day
breakfast, morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea, dinner & supper...
n we could choose between buffet, chinese or western restaurant...
the food was not bad actually...^^

oh...n i'd bet none of u 18-year-olds out there have been in a casino before!
ok....there are....but not Malaysians
cuz under the Malaysian law only ppl above 21 can enter a casino...
but since the casino in the ship was on international waters, i could get in!
aiya...it's no big deal lah....but i watched my dad n his fren play poker...
haha

the only disappointment was when we docked at Singapore...
we were supposed to dock at Sentosa Island at 4 pm...
but due to port congestion a.k.a. TRAFFIC JAM IN THE SEA...
we only got off the ship at around 6 pm...
n we were supposed to go back at 7.30 pm.....
to make it worse.... we had to go through the customs first!
so we only got to check out the offshore shopping malls for 1 hour!!
ceh....tak syok

oh...n the weird thing is....
though we ate n ate n ate....
none of us got heavier....
hahahaha

Holidays

update update before ppl start to think tht i stopped blogging...
haha

rite...it's holidays!!!
yeah...everybody's on holidays huh....

so...this is wat i've been doing/have done lately:

• get a new IC
• cut my hair short
  
• go to karaoke with sis n cousin
• go to A Famosa with college friends and find the place boring but learn more about 'Cho Dai Di'.... haha
• bang onto some motor's butt while driving my sis' car and so have my very first car accident [i assure u it's nth serious....surprisingly oni my sis' car got 'hurt'....which means i am DAMN LUCKY.... n the accident was my fault really ><]
• watch dramas online [finished watching Hana Kimi....hehe....very interesting drama by the way....and 5 episodes of Worlds Within....starring Hyun Bin and Song HyeGyo]
• sleep till really late at noon and upset my parents [aiya...no surprise loh]

anyway....tht's all for now
enjoy ur holidays ppl =P

I want that HD

i had Accounting finals today.

i think i did ok.....
but i'm having doubts about whether or not i can get that HD ><

erm, if i had had a good night's sleep yesterday, i would have done better......
trouble is i didn't....
haha....
tried to pull off studying overnight then go straight to the exam.....
like what i did during SPM.... =P

aiya..... it must be lack of 'practice' lah....
cuz i didn't really succeed in doing good during the exam.....
haha

mainly because my brain was working slower than it should lah....
so i had to think twice about my answers....
and didn't have much time to check my answers....

summore i doubted my own answers.....
when most of them were right already!!! ><
haha.......

so for the last question....
Bank Reconciliation.....
[hooiyo....Ms. Eileen is really not bad eh.....trick us in our finals!!!]
i dunno whether i messed up the accounts or the figures.....
aiya... truth is i messed it up lah.....
but i really dunno how messed up it is... =.=
hopefully not too much lah.....
i wanna get HD!!!!!!