My full time job

My full time job, you would guess that it's STUDENT.

And it should be so.

But sadly, it is not.

The correct answer is...

二家姐

Job description:

To put up with my brother, a pain in the ass.

Job requirement:

Patience + Humour

Benefit:

Amusement

Disadvantage:

Irritation

Income:

None Whatsoever

I think I'm good at my job, because nobody else understands him the way I do.

However, it gets tiring.

If somebody calls you "二家姐!!!" every other minute, and demands something from you, you'll know exactly how I feel.

Plus, he's LOUD.

If his favourite word is "二家姐", then mine should be "BISING".

On top of that, he has an impossible personality.

My full time job is 二家姐; his full time job is 管家仔.

Everything concerns him.

Example, if you eat out, he asks about your meal the minute you get home.

But the most annoying thing he does, is saying "做咩" about a hundred times each day.

If you ask him something, he answers with 做咩.

If you tell him to do something, he asks you 做咩.

If you tell him something, he also asks you 做咩.

Even when you're saying nonsense, he says 做咩.

Despite all that, I still love my brother (my boss), 管家Kin. =P

Standstill

That first step you take is the longest stride

But my problem is, I don't take the next step.


I've seen people hurting by thinking too much.
I hurt myself by doing nothing.

Different sides of me

Family = People who see the bad/worse side of me

Friends = People who see the better side of me

Others = People who see whatever they want to see in me

19 going on 20

I was struck by a sudden realization, while rereading the Twilight saga, that my time as a teenager is coming to an end.

Bella wanted to be frozen in her teens, before she turned 20, because Edward is forever 17. Haha.

Friends! We are turning into our 20s!

How about that, huh?

Haha. It actually doesn't bother me much.

Rather, it gives me one less reason to remain a kid.

Okay, maybe that does bother me a little. o.0

I was wondering about what is left of my days as a teen, when I backtracked and relived the year.

It sure was eventful, but lonely as well.

Foundation to Degree.

Psychology to Economics.

Local to Abroad.

I don't like change. Especially transformations that were not initiated by me.

It really is a blessing and a curse, to have an elder in the family who would stir up my life, in the name of fatherly love.

Manipulative, that's the word. And it irritates the hell out of me.

Still, a blessing and a curse.

On another note, I realized that the world was getting lonelier.

My parents don't see past my obvious flaws.

My friends are growing distant physically and intellectually. Sunway, Singapore, UK; Arts, Science, Social Science.

My relationship with sister was regressing towards roommates, as we were submerged in our own personal problems, and rarely shared them. [Note the past tense]

And my broken mirror nicked me time and time again with his self-centredness and lack of faith, reminding me of his pain, hoping I could fix him up.

In any case, nobody felt the need to share their inner thoughts with me, so I felt the same.

Not even bothering to BLOG about anything at all. It was lonely. =.=

One other thing that I would regret is I idled away a lot of my time. A LOT.

I'm ashamed to talk about how I wasted my time, so let's just leave it at that.

Urgh...my guilt is eating me up.

Regardless, I still learnt. Stumbling all the way towards adulthood.

Pray for a better me.

Irony

I know of a person, who very much wants to study in UK.
But, her parents are against the idea. They cannot support her financially.
Besides, she has 3 younger siblings who are still in school.
Regardless, she still wants to go.

I find it ironic, because I was the complete opposite.
My family were the ones who told me to go ahead; while I was the one worried about spending their money.
And I struggled for so long, to find the right reasons for me to want to go.

If I were her, I wouldn't even think about it.
That's why it's so ironic.
But I am in no position to discourage her.

This is one of those times when I should be grateful of what I have.
And it reminds me of a phrase my former lecturer once said, "Thank God life is not fair".

UOL Annual Dinner

Last Friday, the UOL department had our very first annual dinner at Hilton KL, all thanks to Dr Chin and the students in charge.
It was fun, I had a great time with my friends.

That was the introduction.
Actually Cousin Grace was bugging me to share photos on Facebook.
I didn't know I have to create an album to post photos there. =.=
Besides, if I post them on Facebook, almost everyone will see them.
I prefer more privacy than that.
So here, photos taken on my phone.

My first attempt at putting on make up on my own. Not bad gua...haha...actually cannot see the make up right?

Food was not bad. Desserts were better, and there were lots of them.
My friend Kher Ye, who always sits beside me in class.

And a cute Kher Ye in the toilet. haha

Keng Fai and Kher Ye.

Keng Fai and me. Unfortunately, I only took photo with one guy. haha

Shangari, the only Indian girl in our class.

Pamela and me. The only 2 girls in our Sociology class, may intake.

Serene. Looks very pretty holding the rose.

Min Ee, me, Weng Yan, Li Foong. Socio freaks.

This is blurry, but I like it. I think Weng Yan squeezed in a moment too late. haha

"2pm!!!" Min Ee, a.k.a. Mrs Nichkhun. Also loves Super Junior, FT Island, SHINee, etc etc... [but only certain members =.=]... A Kpop fan, and I can speak Korean with her! haha


And last but not least, my Ah Sou, Yee Theng. Pretty, isn't she?
Bro, I like her. =P

My parents - Masters at finding my faults

MT: Mi...don't call me at 12 sth...I was having class.

Mom: I forgot what time you finish class...sms so frustrating...so I gave up and called...

Dad: Next time, write your timetable on the board. You know ur mom, always forget.
[and on and on......]

MT: *speechless*


and please... do not imagine the conversation in a nice nice tone. I assure you it was much more annoying than that.

It is amazing. They twist something fairly irrelevant to pick my faults.
Arguing makes it worse. What a defensive family.

Are you nuts?

I saw these words in Bread Story yesterday, and I immediately thought of someone.
"Are you nuts" is actually the name of a bread, by the way.
It's filled and coated with peanut butter.
So, back to my story.
I thought I should buy this bread for Mr Raj, indirectly asking him "Are you nuts?"
HAHA

Well, I'm sure he'd say YES.
He sometimes says this in class, "You all must be thinking I'm a crazy nut."
And during those times I would mentally nod my head.

So, who is he, you might ask.
He is my Sociology tutor.
And he constantly amazes me.
So don't get me wrong, I'm not calling him nuts for negative reasons.
I actually like him a lot.

And you would have no idea how crazy he is unless you've experienced it yourself.
But here's a good story he told this morning, and I think it shows how unique he is.

So yesterday, Mr Raj was in the lift. There was this student beside him who was talking too loudly. Mr Raj was very annoyed. He wanted to tell this student, "I don't want to hear about your life, keep it to yourself." Or something similar to that. But of course, that wasn't a good idea. He didn't even want to talk to this person. So all he did was, he looked at the student, and then he looked at his own fingers, then he walked out. Just then he heard some students laughing behind him, so he turned around and said something, then walked away leaving the students stunned.

He said, "HUMAN EXISTENCE IS AN ERROR."

19th Birthday

So it was my birthday...
and I had so many people wishing me on facebook...
Thank you, each and everyone of you.
though I cannot tell if you really meant it...
so I'm sarcastic...shoot me

And everyone who wished me through text messages, thank you.
Thank you for remembering my birthday ^^

And thank you Grace and Lai Thin, for celebrating with me.
I'm sure you are still full.....wahahaha
By the way, I think my stomach expanded 0.o
Hahahahah

And thank you Kher Ye and Phoebe, who treated me to steamboat yesterday.
Kind of like an early celebration. =P

And the best of all...thank you Xiao Sian and Wei Han...
It's great to see you guys battle it out to be the 1st to wish me on my birthday.
Your rivalry amuses me like nothing else...hahahahahah
And I will hold you to your promises!!! XP

So here's a photo of me today, making a silly pose.
Actually copied someone...haha

2 weeks holiday...not long...but not short either

It's holiday.
I'm wasting my time reading romance novels again, though I have some stuff I should do.
In fact, I should really get started, and get it over with. Otherwise, there'll be hell to pay.
Well, I'll get around to it. No worries.

So, it's holiday.
Bro was asking me whether I had plans.
Told me to get on a trip, be adventurous.
Then I told him I'm the stay-at-home type.
And then he changed the topic and asked me whether I joined any clubs.
I answered, "Since when did u start caring about my social life?"
Haha...that put him off.

Ok, I'll tell you the truth.
The answer is no.
But I didn't want to kena 'ngam'.
I knew you'd turn into the typical big brother and start lecturing me again.
So there was nothing secretive lah....haiyo....
Don't be so suspicious.

To my selfish friend,

Friendships are not supposed to be like this.

You burdened him with your selfishness, that was your mistake.
He gave up on you, that was his mistake.

I understand his actions, and I wouldn't blame him either.
But I will say this once.
If he gave up on you that easily, he doesn't deserve you.

Quit wondering if things will ever go back to how it was.
It will never be the same again.
Even if you rebuilt the friendship, the scars would still be there.

So let go. Just let go.


I know, that he is more important than the rest of us.
But think, how I feel, everytime you come to me troubled.
Don't take us for granted, the friends who care about you.

Done

I'm done.
Done being a failure.

What's worth the price is always worth the fight

What is the price?
And what am I fighting for?

My English is BAD

Well, really?

I'll admit.
I am weak at vocabulary.
I am not good at expressing myself.
I have bad social skills.

But my English is grammatically correct.
My academic results in English has always been good.
A1 in GCE 'O' / 1119
I don't think that is VERY BAD.

I am an ignorant kid.
You can treat me as such, make fun of me.
But don't look down on me.


Nickelback - Savin' Me
'Teach me wrong from right, and I'll show you what I can be'

Intelligence

It has always been a constant in my life.
It has taken me places.
But how much further can it take me?
I feel, I am reaching my limits.

然后怎样

我终于, 突破了自己.
果然, 不经一事, 不长一智.
发觉, 相信自己, 才是最重要的.

昨天的心情, 一言难尽.
只能用一首歌来形容.

Mission

All of a sudden
Studying abroad seems to be the most important thing
Struck us like a thunderstorm, leaving a chaotic mess.
Everything is full of uncertainties.
Plans are being made; lives will change.

It all started when 'the centre of our universe' came over and set the ball rolling.
I wanted to curse him, but I will thank him.

And so, I'm on a mission.

Half Truths

My dearest friend,
You have been telling me half truths and white lies.
But I believed you.
A part of me understands, if you will not tell me everything; but another part of me is puzzled, why wouldn't you tell your best friend about your true condition?
I heard that your friends are all worried about you.
I instantly got worried.
Just how serious is it? Should I be worried?
I fear you might have told me half truths again.
But you said you are fine.
And I believe you.
You told me not to worry, and I really didn't worry.
I have that much faith in you.
I hope, however, that you will not take advantage of our distance.
Will you tell me the whole truth?

no internet

For some reason I don't care to explain, I currently have no Internet connection at home.
So, I'm just using the computer lab at HELP.
They don't let us watch videos here though.
But fortunately, can download songs. =P

So, I guess I won't blog much during this one month.

I actually wanted to blog about something a few days earlier.
But now I just want to say this...
How could someone push all my wrong buttons in just a few hours of conversation?

Anyway, I'm feeling the pressure of doing a UOL course.
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Suck it up!

Imagine you were me:
Having class, paying attention, eager to learn, not wanting to miss even a word the lecturer says, wishing you could digest/absorb everything the lecturer is teaching you.

Then, you hear this...

"Sir! Let's call it a day."
"Sir! That's all for today."
"Sir! Raining oh..."
"Sir! Tired lah sir..."

and other petty excuses people use so that the lecturer would let the class off early.

So, imagine you were me.
You would be PISSED OFF.

That is not all.
Imagine you are talking. Then, somebody cut you short, and asks you something insignificant.
Worse still, that somebody drops some silly remark---which, I suppose, is meant to be funny.
That is what happens to my lecturers.

I don't know what my lecturers think.
But that is so damn RUDE.

So, imagine you were me.
What would you do?
Keep quiet? or speak up?

Bear in mind that many others share your opinion too.
Unfortunately, nobody chooses to speak up.

So, my dear friends, if you know me well, you would know what I did.
I took the first step, however small it was.
[Yes, unfortunately, it had to be me.]

The lecturer was letting us off. He was, thank goodness, finished with his lectures.
"So, your homework is..."
"Sir! Don't want lah!"

That did it. I said, "Shut up!"

Frankly, I do not know if the particular person heard me.
But people behind me told me I said it rather loudly.
I suspect my lecturer heard me, though. After all, I sit in the 1st row.

So there. I spoke up.
But, I should have said this instead:
You signed up for this. Suck it up!