Do your best

It's been a while since I've blogged.
These days I just feel bad.
I wasn't going to share those bad feelings.
But well, it's good to let it out sometimes.

I don't know how I turned out to be like this.
Idling around, looking for insignificant things to do, caring about other people's business, wasting time.
Generally, avoiding things I have to do.

It's bad. Really bad.
In fact, worse than ever.
I think I hate myself.

It wasn't too long ago when I had 100 days to my exams.
Now there's less than 2 months left.
The sense of urgency is getting more intense by the second.

I need to pass the ultimate test.
I need to break through my own weaknesses.
Otherwise, there's gonna be a next time, and I'd be worse than I am now.

I'm not useless.
I shall do my best to prove it.